BREAKING POINT

I have a lot of issues to handle..  But for the past couple of months i was proud that i had handled one of my problems. My temper.

the chain of events that occurred in the last 3-4 days has led me to me to go back on that..  I try my best to stay calm..  But still i had a breaking point..  Let me walk you through what happened in my life from last Thursday.. 

With my CAT classes going on and my college on the other hand i have a lot of stuff on my plate which keeps me very busy..  So till Wednesday night i was pretty packed with work..  

But Thursday morning.. I fell sick.. But the good thing was that i was awake from morning..  So i started to do my studies but with very little energy..  And by the time it was noon i was done..  I got frustrated and the only way i know to blow of steam is by watching some good movies. And as i started watching movies my whole day got wasted. But i convinced myself that it was fine as i was sick and i needed the rest anyways..

Friday morning..  Its 6:00 am and i am awake..  I have this habit of checking my phone as soon as i wake up..  And as i  did that i saw that ad received a message from my friend that he was bunking college that day..  Stating the fact that i had only two good friends in college an i know as both of then stay close by if one of them doesn't go to college the wont too..  I decided to bunk too. 

Bunk means.. Sleep..  So i hit the bed again..  I woke up only at 11 50 am.. That ten minutes before noon.. and as i do on all my holidays.. i had my lunch and watched TV for sometime.. 

I suddenly realized that i had police verification for passport in the evening .. so in the little time i had in my hands i prepared all the documents that were required and took a bath.. i ironed my shirt and was all dressed and ready to leave .. my intercom phone buzzed to life.

i attended the call.. it was the from the main gate of my society.. the watchman had called to inform me that a policeman has come for passport verification.. 

i was partially relieved that i didn't have to go to the police station but on the other hand i was scared because i have never been in an police inquiry before.. 

i expected the policeman to be in uniform but when i received him to my house he was wearing casuals which gave me the idea why he was here.. he wanted so to "check " me.. for his own benefit..

I am a Tamilian and my Hindi is not so great.. and the policeman speaks Marathi.. i was in a pickle and it was a big one. i couldn't understand what he was saying and what documents he wanted me to produce until my neighbor who saw the policeman enter my home thought i was in some kind of trouble and came for my aid.. 

she spoke in Marathi with the policeman and found out that he had come for his own reason and it was not a part of the  police verification..

this is how it worked out.. he saw my society name which is one of the lush society in the area and thought he could get some bribe if he came to see me personally and it worked out very well for him.. all i found out was that i had to go again on Sunday to get the proper verification done,, 

The point of this whole story is even though i had my guard up and running all these months since i decided not to waste my life and to do something useful.. i had come across so many situation that had tested my patience.. all the fights at home.. pressure from college.. not being able to score in tests.. this world so competing that it is waiting for the chance to crack you ..

and i let it happen when i found out the reason why the policeman had come to my house and if i had left an hour earlier to the police station .. my verification work would have been completed that day itself.. and this broke me... i got so frustrated that i wasted my whole Saturday and half a day of Sunday  till the time i went to the police station..

this may seem very silly but it happens when you might have moved mountains but the smallest stone will make you fall from your stand.. 

the best way to deal with this is accept what ever life throws at you but never get dismayed or discouraged by failures.. you cannot always do everything correct the first time.. somethings make take its time and toll on you.. 

Be patient .. dont let it cross your breaking point